7-18-13
Reading Jung this morning, and he talks about science trying to pigeonhole a person based on statistics and missing the real individual, who is unique. So even the Meyer’s-Briggs and the Enneagram, which is a kinda pigeonholing is at least trying to separate us somewhat, and the way we have degrees is trying to say that we are all different.
Just cuz we all have fingerprints doesn’t mean that all of them are the same, so my values and perceptions are different, not necessarily wrong, just different. Last night Joe McQ said then when he’s in the football stadium, nobody else will see the plays as he does, even those closest to him.
On another note some of my inner turmoil is about my self-righteousness about the People Serenity Prayer: “God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it’s me,” which got slipped into the ACA format as the ” ACA” Serenity Prayer.
But I’m just seeing, from the morning CP that being a channel of peace is to be willing to compromise, and not compromise where I feel that I gave up something I wanted but where I see that the other party is satisfied and happy, and maybe we are both better off. Is that not peace in a Anima sense? Is this the maturity that I’ve longed for all these years. Is the lack of rigidity, which is unyielding cuz it proves that I’m right, killing me and not neccassarily “them.”. This needing to be right is highly detrimental and I see that although it is people along with places and things that bother me, it is the places and things that are influenced by people that are the ultimate cause of the stress. I feel like there is a major breakthrough here, and not just about right or wrong like it is a zero sum game but that being partially right or partiallly wrong is good cuz it invites learning and growth in places not previously thought. And it is ess stressful for me and the world that needs to put up with me.
To strive to give love, comfort and understanding as a way of becoming a channel of peace necessitates the possibility of having guiltlessly mistaken or incomplete perception and consequential comprehension. Is peacemaking compromising while not feeling cheated or intimidated? Is peacemaking a way of making peace with the anima?
Keating says that the minute that winning becomes important the fun goes out of playing, of living, of being human. He says that growth may be painful, and often is, but the whole journey should be seen as fun, without it being a competition. He says that when the fun is over, the game is over when it becomes a career, when we have expectations of achieving something whether tangible or intangible. For example, going to school had intrinsic benefits that seem to almost come as unintended consequences vs the degree for a better job. When the expectation of the outcome was reduced the peace grew and the learning and satisfaction multiplied. It was like the happiness from learning was merely a by-product, like realizing that most happiness comes from a by-product of doing the right thing with the right attitude, or even changing the attitude from the process of doing anything, which then wavers from being a good thing or a bad thing or both simultaneously. Oh oh, getting deep and lost
God, as well as all of us, are on the spiritual journey and each of us contributes for all of our progress. As one of us moves ahead so then each of has the permission to move also—????? Evolutional spirituality.
Keating, talking about the parent-child relationship, says that people recover not from advice but from love.
Thinking about that time in front of liquor store in Santa Ana when I was scared that those cholos would think I was scared and I just reached in the truck grabbed the Dan Wesson and put it to the closest guy’s head. I was terrified and not sure what I was going to do. I laid the eight inch barrel over his head and let a round go off. That Filipino kid, the real crazy one, came a long and went in the liquor store and threatened them not to call the police and he helped me hide my truck a half-a-block from there. Pedro took me to get my other truck or the Shortster, but I left that truck there for a week or two and we were real careful to see if anyone was staking it out, either cops or the vatos locos. This came up tonight in CP—wild stuff coming up and out.
Tonight’s ACC was very inspirational and cathartic al at the same rime. I felt that we are bonding a little better. Each is learning to trust each other and themselves bit by bit.
7-18-13–Paddy O’Lounger
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